Assalamualaikum and bonjour guys.

So how? After a long time without seeing my entries on your following? After a long time without newer entry from me, how is it? Happy? Lol. So today  just wanna said about a simple thing. "Life not to being happy at all"

Life. Yes officially our respective life full of twists that only our own sorrow unnoticed know other people. Others are only able to see, hear all the talk dealt with but can not feel the pain of which we feel. Sometimes, I really tired. Tired of all the games that are happening in my life. This topic is the act of love that never make me happy with it. So we're gonna start now?

Tears. A lot of tears I wasted too much just for the love that I had expected but not encouraging. Why? It caused me to give up too soon. Myself am not aware of it. I relented because just to keep the hearts of others. I love the friends of I own? He already has a girlfriend. Thats why I relented. I remain silent. Just to keep the heart of a woman you love. I love you, but I love it never occurred to me rob you of it because I know how much it hurt when her lover take his loved ones. Pain is not it? I think a thousand times to continue my life with you and I have to step out of your life. I acknowledge the pain was painful to see you with her but what, you're not mine. Maybe our relationship is quite simply a friend. Lie if I do not feel jealous when I see your happiness with her. I just remain silent. I was not able to say anything.

Not easy to see you with her. My pain just to hold you remain happy with her. Yes, your friend know about my feeling on you but its not important. And the more I try to forget you ever love me as you. But one day someone changed my feelings on you just love as a friend. He knows how to treat me well. He is caring, loving and others. The problem is he's change. Change a lot now. He seemed to be nonchalant with me. Yes he has a life of its own. To be free and not be with me 24/7. But serious talk, he change a lot. Before, there is still a bit sweet wishes before i'm gonna go to sleep. Sweet wishes for morning, sweet everyday conversation. But now, all that automatically gone after a misunderstading of us. It is only temporary. I'm tired of all this resistance.

Oh guys. I'm gonna hurting to being with all of this sh * t things. I just want my old life back. Yes, the awkward moment when you feel that you're important in his life but you're not. Its gonna be hurting things i felt. Can i just throw all this pain into the river? I'm gonna be crazy. I cant do that. I know that I'm not pretty as much as other girls outside but for the truly thing I still have a heart to be maintained not in harm. Yes i'm not act pretty thats why you did not deserve to be with the ugly girl like me. But i still trying to be the best for you but i still failed on it.